Not that I vowed to write every day, or even once a week, but my intention for this blog was not to go 3+ weeks without writing in it. Especially so close to the beginning. But here I am, playing catch-up because I haven't posted in so long.
Truth be told, I've actually had a ton to blog about. It seems life around here is never boring, even though I wish it was. Blogging is kind of a catch 22 for me- when I have a lot to blog about, I don't have time to do it. When things are slow, I have plenty of time, but nothing to say. I've gotta work on that.
So Easter went great. Excuse my 3 week late publication on it. But we did the holiday our way, and it worked out WONDERFUL. Mike and I basically avoided making concrete plans until that day, and low-and-behold, everyone worked around our schedule, instead of the other way around. We were relaxed, not jumping down each others throats, and for once, the holiday's were stress-free and pleasant. I have vowed Christmas will be done my way this year. Sorry that sounds so bad, but its so hard with young kids to work around people. Its time the elder generation worked around us. So I plan to take the reins, and become the family dictator! LOL. I promise it won't be as evil as it sounds!
Anyways, since then, we've been pistol whipped day-in and day-out by our little pistols. Man, they are at the most adorable but utterly tiring age. I literally just fall in to bed at night exhausted from mainly yelling at them all day long. Now, don't get me wrong, they are great kids. But they are testing us, one tantrum at a time. It's a battle ground. Maddie vs. Luke, Luke vs. Mommy, Maddie vs. Daddy, Maddie vs. Mommy-- you get the idea. We are butting heads daily. It doesn't always end pretty, but I always stand my ground. We are whiney- unbelieveably whiney. There is definitely nothing I hate more than whining. I can take 24 hours of crying over 10 minutes of whining. Any day. Whining is like nails on a chalk-board for me. And I admit, as I said to Mike last night, I feel like I lose patience more quickly recently. Not sure why, but I just think I'm getting worn down.
I look for summer to be MUCH better. My kids LIVE for the outdoors. They LOVE playing outside, getting dirty, climbing things, playing on their swingset, etc. etc. They SHOULD fight less & love more. I'm hoping to not have to say the word "no" as much, and have kids that are more active, more tired (at naptime and nighttime). We love summer. We live for mornings spent at Nana & Pop-pop's pool, afternoon's spent napping, and evenings spent at Hershey Park! I can't wait! Its so close, I can feel it! The weather right now though is NOT cooperating. It's gone from warm & pleasant, to rainy and unpleasant. I feel like we were spoiled in Feb & March with unseasonably high temps, and now I'm that bratty kid that wants it all the time.
I'm sorry this post is all over the place. I'm "catching up", remember? LOL. On the note of changing weather, winter and winter-like weather makes me exceptionally anxious about my kids getting sick. We have a wedding to go to Friday, and call me doomsday, but I feel like one or more of us is going to be sick by then. Ugh, I have irrational fear that creep up every once in awhile and the one that creeps up the most is sick kids. I don't know why, but I have this awful fear of my kids being sick. Even colds. Most likely because Luke especially is completely miserable with even a cold. Sickness means staying home more and getting bored. I really would have probably been better off as a warm-climate gal. Maybe my anxiety wouldn't be so high, or maybe I would just find other things to worry-about. Being a mom makes you a worrier. Last night Maddie got up in the middle of the night and came out of her room. This is the first time she has ever done this. She asked for a glass of water but because this was so uncharacteristic of her, I layed awake half the night convinced she must be sick, or that something was really wrong with her. Once again, anxiety attack! Ugh! I must find a way to get over this!! I'm hoping as my kids get older and less dependent on me, these anxieties fade away. I have my doubts. They will most likely morph into bigger ones. Oh the joys of parenthood.
Sorry this post turned out so whiney! Haha, after I said how much I hated whining, I feel like all I did was whine!
I'll try to come back again soon. And hopefully with a post less whiney!! LOL
Until next time...
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